I was recently thinking about how life gets incredibly messy sometimes. At times it is just life in general that get busy, other times it is people that get in the way, it can be money, jobs or your health and then there are times when all of these things gang up on you at once. Been there? I think we all have.
In the moment it is hard to see how this could ever be part of the 'plan'. How this could ever have been intended for your life. How this could be a 'teachable moment' or 'growing pains' for something later, something bigger, something better. It is hard to see the big picture.
You know when you cleaning a room, like REALLY cleaning a room, and it gets messier before it gets clean? I think the same often goes for life (and infertility) in a lot of cases. Although I'd love to say when times are tough (or messy) we can just pick up the pieces, put them where they belong in the puzzle and before we know it we'll be facing a beautiful picture. That just isn't the way life works.... at least not my life.
But, if you can step back from the mess far enough, removing the emotions that go with all of the pieces I think we can all agree our lives are a pretty beautiful mess. Each piece makes us who we are. Each out of place morsel has taught us something. Some of those lessons are hard, and at times it is hard not to resent the pieces that taught us those hard lessons. But regardless, it is a piece- a little nugget that makes you, you.
I assure you, there is beauty in the mess. Step back. Look for it. Its there. Someday, it will not look like such a mess- but it takes time. Wait it out. Be patient (bahaha!). Brighter days are ahead.
And just when you are about to get the last piece of the puzzle in place, I promise you, life will get messy again. But this time, you'll know how to deal with it better and perhaps it will be easier. Even if it isn't easier, at least you'll know you will come out the other side, because you did last time. A little battered and bruised, but you made it. You can. You will.