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Some days are certainly easier than others in this journey with infertility. Some days it is the emotional side that is nearly too much to bare, others its the side effects from drugs and treatment and still others it is simply not really wanting to do the things it takes to get to the place you want to be.... you know, like jamming needles into your body or being violated by the ultrasound wand for the umpteenth time!
Today was one of those days. I'm not exactly sure what the problem was, but my stomach was in some serious turmoil. I assume it was from one of the many meds, but all I could think all day was how thankful I was to be home! Luckily for me I had cleaned up the house yesterday after our BBQ (which was SUPER fun by the way!) so today there was very little that needed to get done. Which meant paying a few bills, doing a few dishes and taking an afternoon nap :)
Did I already blog about my dramatic lu.pron injection on Friday night? Nope, looks like I didn't.... lets just say it took me almost an hour to get the nerve to shove that needle through the skin. Keep in mind that was lu.pron injection number five and about the fiftieth belly injection that I've done- it was seriously WAY harder than any other time. I think it was just one of those days where I was mad that I was even having to do injections. After about 4 calls to my husband in the living room, in ice pack and about 6 alcohol swabs I managed to get it done. The bonus was there wasn't any itching or a welt that night, which made the idea of doing it Saturday night MUCH easier.
I'm glad at this point I know to expect the rough days, but I also know to expect that those days will quickly come and go. Although there are hard days, at this point in our journey there are many more good/easy days than bad days. We've finally reached that point. We've accepted where we are- enjoying the good and taking the bad with a grain of salt.
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I had the same trouble when I was going through all the shots - some days were easy, no problem at all. Others, it took me forever to actually do it!
So glad that the BBQ went well!
I have to give myself shots twice a day with Byetta, and even though it's just a tiny needle, I get the same feelings. Like WHY do I have to do this? Seriously, I have to STAB myself? My goodness, it's unreal... but it's toward a specific goal and we do it because we have to. One day, you'll be able to look at YOUR child and say, "I did everything for YOU."
Keep on keepin on, you can do it!!
Big hugs for you. It's unfortunate that we have to get to that level of acceptance, but also good for you because it allows you to live.
You are a rock star for taking those shots and in the end the end, they'll lead you to your babe(s)! :) But you are most certainly right, there are definitely bad days along this journey and they suck hard, but somehow it always gets better. Hugs to you friend!!
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