3.5 Weeks...

I set up our IVF consultation appointment yesterday. In three and a half weeks, we will sit down with our doctor (she'll be back from maternity leave!!!!) and find out what is ahead of us. I've already read the folder of information because my favorite nurse slipped it to me during our last IUI cycle. So, I am feeling pretty knowledgeable about what is about to happen, but I'm sure I will have a few questions about what is coming. For me, making the appointment was one of the most difficult parts. It was like really admitting that we are not going to make a baby on our own. Through all of our IUI cycles, I always felt like if we got pregnant I wouldn't ever be able to say for sure if it was the actual IUI or the prescribed "covering your bases" sex that came after. Don't get me wrong, I don't have any problem with our baby/ies getting its/their start in a petri dish, I have grieved that loss. It is the admitting, out loud, to a person (the scheduler) other than my husband that IVF really is what is next. It just got a little more real. The packet has been read. The appointment is set. This is happening. Soon.