Yesterday I brought something home from my baseline appointment that I had been hoping and praying for the last six months would not EVER enter our home. I think deep down, I knew it would, but it doesn't make it any easier to have a shiny white folder on my coffee table.
Let me explain. This is not the first folder to make a one way trip from the clinic to my coffee table. First it was shiny blue. Blue= IUI/oral fertility drugs. It was scary because it was the first, but now looking back, that reading material was like a children's book... maybe even a fairy tale. Then came red. Red was full of information about IUI with gonadatropins. Red was more like a choose your own adventure book. Although exciting with possibilities, it was also terrifying all at the same time. The side effects sheet alone had me shaking in my boots. Then yesterday. Yesterday I brought home yet another folder. The final folder. The dreaded shiny white folder.
The white folder is all about IVF. I don't even know what kind of book to liken this folder to. Instead I will just list its chapters for you...
In Vitro Fertilization (IVF) Explained
Acupuncture and IVF
Participation in IVF Procedures
Side Effects: Gonadotropins
Facts about OHSS
Complications of Multiple Gestation
Egg Retrieval and Embryo Transfer
Comprehensive Chromosome Screening
Do's and Don'ts for a Treatment Cycle
Yesterday I hardly got past the first few "chapters" before I started to get a little nervous. Then I stopped to remember a bible verse that I'd read just a few days ago... Psalms 46:10.
"Be still and know that I am God."