Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Ironic...

There are a lot of reasons why I love blogging, one of the biggest is being able to go back to a certain date and seeing where I was in that moment. I've often looked back at the same day in the previous year to see how things had changed or not changed.

On THIS very day one year ago, I wrote about what I guess was the official end of my first pregnancy. It was the day my beta finally reached zero. Though I'm sure I was feeling sad for all that we'd lost, I was also ready to pick myself up and begin moving on. I was ready to start preparing both my heart and my body to try again- to attempt once more to find myself pregnant with the hope of carrying that baby (or babies!) until they were big enough and strong enough to come home with us.

I find it somewhat ironic that I wrote on that day about becoming 'un-pregnant', because today the same thing will happen, only this time my appointment is for a c-section not a beta. It is amazing in one year's time we've really come full circle. Dreams have been realized, and on a day that was bittersweet last year, I will this year have two sweet boys placed in my arms!

On this day...
4 years ago, we were in the midst of our first cycle of trying for a baby.
3 years ago, we were a couple of cycles into clomid.
2 years ago, we were in the process of beginning treatment with our RE.
1 year ago, we had just miscarried our first pregnancy.

And today... Today, we become parents and our family not only grows, it DOUBLES!!!!


18 comments:

beccasfamilyof5 said...

Sorry that this day holds tough memories, but today you get to rewrite the past and make it a day for celebrations. :)

Good luck! :)

E and R said...

Truly coming full circle today. Congratulations!!

Jessica said...

So so happy for you!! Im so amazed that you carried them so long. Your pretty much a ROCK STAR in my book! Praying for a safe delivery for you and babies!

Sara McLaughlin said...

Ahhh! This is such a beautiful post & it fills me with such hope :) Good luck & congratulations! I can't wait to hear about the next step in your journey!!

Amy said...

I am so thrilled for you. Congratulations and best wishes for today!

amy said...

Awww...that was a tear jerker! My goodness, what a journey you have had...you deserve this double serving of blessings! Can't wait to hear all about it!

Jules said...

OK, that made me cry at my desk! So happy for you! I hope everything goes smoothly today and I can't wait to see pictures!

Megan said...

So excited for you! I hope everything goes well. Take care of yourself and update us as soon as you can. The next time you post you will be a mommy!

Stephanie said...

Wow, it really is amazing to go back and see what you were doing on these days. I am SOOOO glad that THIS is what you are doing today, and one event I'm sure you will look back on for the rest of your life as one of the happiest days ever. Thinking of you sweetie!

Sarra said...

This post made me cry. It's so amazing to see the progression and to know that today all those dreams of motherhood finally come true for you. What was once a very sad day for you just one year ago suddenly becomes the best day of your life. So happy for you.

Laura said...

It just happens that today is mother's day in Costa Rica.....so happy mothers day to you.

L said...

I can't wait to hear the news of the boys arrival!!!

jill's infertility document said...

I can't believe today is the day! I will be thinking of you and waiting to hear all about it.

Kelli said...

love it! sending love to you and your family!

Emily @ablanket2keep said...

Amazing what a year can bring. I am so happy for you!

Stephanie said...

Oh my goodness, the boys are here! The boys are here as I type this! I hope everything went beautifully and you're enjoying these early moments with your little family! I'm so thrilled for you and can not wait to see pictures and hear stories!! Hugs friend!! Your boys are here!! :-D

Shan said...

I hope all went exceptionally well and that you are recovering and enjoying your beautiful babies.

JM said...

Hoping and praying everything went well!!! Any update to let us know? I'm sure you're ridiculously busy with two healthy boys on your hands!!