Instead of sitting on my end of the line proclaiming to the receptionist that YET AGAIN cycle day one had arrived and feeling a twinge of hope alongside the daunting reality that a baby could still be YEARS away, I was sitting in my living room with two babies giggling themselves to sleep a couple of rooms away. I was checking in on the absence of the annual babysitting bill for our embryos. ((Which leads me to a question, do you pay annually for the storing of your embryos? I was under the impression this was completely standard, but was told by someone recently that they do not pay an annual fee for storage.-- we pay about $350 per year, if you were curious. ))
Anyway, it was weird. Though I do desperately want another baby or maybe even two, it was different calling the office. I was mostly checking on the bill, but also looking into some insurance stuff for when we head back this fall for an FET consult with hopes of a transfer in early 2015. Somehow it just wasn't as terrifying. I get that I have two perfect babies at home, perhaps knowing the physicians already makes it easier, or maybe it is just that I have more of an understanding of what to expect. I know the drill. I suspect that come fall/winter I will find plenty of things to stress about, but until then, I am so grateful for this complete calm about what is ahead.
In other news- we're having a garage sale this weekend. How is it that every single time I forget how much work it is to have one? I know it will feel great to get several things out of our house and to gain a little cash for the things we don't need anymore, but seriously, somebody remind me next year that it is a TON of work to get it all pulled together! Thankfully Hubs is totally on board for helping so, fingers crossed, it should be an enjoyable weekend of hanging out outside and getting rid of all the things that take up every bit of our garage!
What else? The boys are HUGE. We sneak in most nights on our way to bed and cover them up and last night we both just couldn't hardly take how big they looked in their cribs. My babies will be TWO in less than two months. -- H is a horrid sleeper and wakes up most nights somewhere between 1 and 3am. He has a horrible time getting back to sleep and most of the time in the last couple of weeks he has needed to come to bed with us in order to settle back down-- unless I want to rock him for two hours, which for the record, I do not. This is one of those 'twins are way harder' areas. If it was just H, I could easily sleep in forever in the morning with him, but his stellar sleeper of a brother tends up wake up for the day just about the time H is finally calming down on the roughest nights. If you are following along that means this mama of VERY busy twin almost two year olds doesn't get enough sleep.
Does all of that sleep talk make you wonder WHY in the world I would even consider wanting to get pregnant again? Yeah, me too! But, I have hope that by the time I'm growing another babe both boys will be sleeping much better. Six months. Surely we can do it. Right?
